It was in my age of 22  I join in a public undertaking as an Assistant and continued there for 5 years..I had to join a trade union lead by leftists.At that time there was a strike which lasted for 17 days.Eventhough a probationer I was  forced to strike.My leaders asked me to insult my officer and let off the air from the wheels of his car.Toshow that I am smart I did what those leaders asked to perform.I  later resigned the job to join a better position in GovtI .When i became an officer I understood  what an officer is.I felt  guilty  in what I did.Years rolled on.One day I accidentally  met in train my former officer whom I insulted when I was a lower employee.I asked him to pardon me for what I did  on the instgation of others.He smiled..when I entered into matured service I saw the  varied faces of  service organisations  hypocriiical in their attitudes.I will conclude this note with a recent incident.A  lady  whose husband  is  known to me for years  is a  a clerk in a govt Office..She was suspended for some financial irregularities detected in audit.She says she doesnot know how it happened She was inexperienced.Any way it is serious. .Some vouchers were missing.The service organisation leaders asked her to admit the charges and assured they will look after.She admitted all the charges and remitted 6 lakh rupees pledging her ornaments in bank.It is now more than six months since her suspension.She is not reinstated.The same leaders asked 2 lakh rupees as bribes to reinstate her.Her husband asked me whether I can do any help.I telephoned the Director who is an IAS man and my junior in service,  and asked to kindly do the needful.He gave personal direction to the officer to reinstate her  pending enquiry.Now the leader asks one lakh as bribes otherwise they may give it to vigilance.It was a trap.Now the lady is struggling to find out one lakh rupee.What you say about the leaders?